Is this for me?

Since January, my life has been consumed with an internship, homework and my sorority, Sigma Alpha. I pull twelve-hour days of leaving at 6 am and getting home around 5:30/6:00 pm on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Then Tuesday and Thursday I spend all day in class and completing homework assignments. My evenings, when I am not in class or at work, are taken over by meetings and small groups. I am always exhausted.

So, I began thinking: is the public relations industry for me?

Here is my dilemma. I see the people at The Richards Group working their butts off for nine hours or longer every day and many times, they work on the weekends and from home. Most of the folks on my team do not have families and just appear constantly busy. The ones that do have kids have nannies and I don’t want my kids raised by nannies. When I shadowed a woman in a marketing firm in Houston it was the same thing – always busy, always working and never home.

I want a family. I want to be home with my kids and husband. I want to take them to soccer and ballet, pick them up from school and make my family dinner. Is it even possible to have a career and be the best mom and wife possible? Right now, I get off work and couldn’t fathom having to run myself around for errands, let alone run around any children. The long hours and working weekends doesn’t appear to compliment having a family – especially if my husband is working to.

On the other hand, I am only twenty and have no prospect of getting married anytime soon. So why is this something I am worrying about? I have many talents that allow me to be really great at public relations and marketing and I definitely do not want to waste those. So would not having a long career make my unhappy? I guess these are the joys that come with an internship; making you re-think your life goals. 

Internships make you question, ‘is this for me?’